A new, new leaf

Okay. So I've started the process of sucking less recently (please keep your idiotic comments to yourself). And it's going pretty well, but I could do better. And, like a diet, once you put it out there? You kind of have to go with it. So this is me, putting it out there.
These are the things I need to work on and hopefully change:

• Being in the now. I always fail at this. Tolle says you should be in one of three modalities: acceptance; enjoyment; or enthusiasm. I am currently either in a state of reluctance, resentment or, um.... other. We'd all rather be doing other things. In the meantime I need to either accept where I am, or start working on changing my situation.


• Wasting time. I fuck around on the internet too much. I need to channel my energy into something worthwhile. Sleeping would be a significantly healthier past time. And one can never have enough rejection slips...


• My health. Need to lose that five pounds. Cut out carbs. Reduce sugar, salt, coffee and... sigh... alcohol.

Gack. I hate my job and I want more rice crackers and another glass of wine. As I fuck around on the internet.
I am the consummate example of someone that wants something to happen to them, without being willing to make something happen.
Awesome. I just saved myself like $100 in psychologist's fees! Maybe I can use these imaginary savings to pay down my loan with Michael...