I like having conversations with people where we're both on the same page. There is (and yes, I'm going full out hippy here) an energy that seems to emanate from such conversations. I feel energized and excited and connected. I get the same feeling from being around people who just seem to really enjoy my company, and I theirs.
There's so much useless conversation out there. So many meaningless exchanges and things said and not meant and promises that fall through.
I had an interesting experience at a supermarket the other day. I was watching the cashier help someone in front of me and I was noticing how robot-like she was and how rather unfriendly and I was wondering how our exchange would go when I got to the 
check out. Anyways, I guess I was focusing rather intently on her and she looked up at me and gave me the rote "hi there" and then started scanning my groceries, but then she looked back up at me and paused and I looked directly at her and she said very distinctly "how are you doing today?". And the super corny thing is that I think she literally meant it.
check out. Anyways, I guess I was focusing rather intently on her and she looked up at me and gave me the rote "hi there" and then started scanning my groceries, but then she looked back up at me and paused and I looked directly at her and she said very distinctly "how are you doing today?". And the super corny thing is that I think she literally meant it.The other thing that I like is people that say things that they mean to strangers. People don't compliment each other enough. People don't even talk or look at other people they don't know. I like to start random conversations in the frozen food section. I will tell you if I like your boots. Most people are receptive to this: they're surprised at first, but then you end up having an impromptu interaction. People give me the thumbs up when I go out running. Other runners encourage me and I try and wave and say hi to them. That's awesome.
We should all just pause and have a giant group hug. Are you ready?
Anyways, this is for Big D: "The mind can make a heaven out of hell or a hell out of heaven" - John Milton.
And this is for my Dad (he wrote this in a letter to me when I was a hormonally unbalanced teenager): "Smile and the world smiles with you. Cry, and you cry alone".
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I do that, too. Talk to strangers in the supermarket.
'Ooh, look. Cheap onions!'
Nice quote from your dad. So true.
I'm actually really depressed at the moment but feel that it's pointless to blog it as it just either makes others feel down or they don't get it and I feel like a pratt. But I'm way down there, trying to figure out my 'path'.
The thing is I reckon the man I fell in love with will end up breaking my heart because a] His excuses are lame and that once my heart is broken, which I am dreading, I just don't feel like loving again, and a life without love in it, sucks. So I see a bleak future ahead of me. Especially when he writes to me while I am in Thailand and says, 'Hey honey, I'm off to Mexico.'
Boy, how I dread the coming months.
That's a really tough place to be in. I was once mad for this guy: he was perfect (I thought) and yet he kept doing things that were careless or hurtful and when I would call him on it he would give a totally lame excuse, or even lie. But I kept on because he never told me flat out "no" and I put myself through all kinds of misery and my friends looked at me with incredulousness at my behavior.
I dunno. That's my own pathetic story, I suppose.
I do know that there's always another lover, friend, job, opportunity or adventure on the horizon if you believe that there is.
But more fundamentally? Fuck the horizon: I am enjoying the 'right now', cause really, it's all there is.
I hope you find your happiness again. You have an amazing life and people seem to love you wherever you go. I don't think it's luck: I think it's your great personality.
Yeah, living in the now is a good way to live but when you are sure of something, like I am, then it really hurts when others aren't, even though they keep you on a thread. I'm more like, either you're with me, or you're not. No inbetween. Especially given the depth of the love that this guy has shown me.
Uh, I dunno.
Gonna try harder.
Hallso, I'm not that popular. I have many enemies in Japan; like the Trash Ladies.
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Yeah, I'm a big fan of the thread. I revere the thread.
Relationships are AWESOME, no? So clear cut and easy to maneuvre.
I'm sorry about the Trash Ladies front. Those are some serious enemies. I think they have a gang over here. Don't want to meet up with them in a dark alley anytime soon.
:)
The Thread. Do or do not. There is no try.
First of all, Duder you are beautiful in this photo. That's not to say that you aren't always a looker, but there's something about the look on your face that makes me shudder. Secondly, M no matter what you do or what happens in your life, you know that I love you. I don't just say that, I mean that and I think you know it. I can't be your lover and you can't be mine either. But perhaps,one day when we are are old, grey, wrinkled, ghastly, leathery, vague husks of our former selves, we can exhibit our love for one another (if we can still stand how we look). We can move in with Duder, so that she can cringe at our crumpled, puckered, archaic, moldy, dingy, vintage bodies. What a trio we will be!
I was going to mention that I love the look on a stranger's face when you complement them on their shoes or their hair "oooh good hair!" Or even better the behavior of their kids. But then ya'll went and got all deep on me.
Living in the now is so easy, yet we forget to do it. We chose our path and those that are supposed to walk it with us join in.
And like your 'runners club' with the waves and thumbs up... it's the same way when you drive a 68 Mustang. Now days I only get waves from other Miata drivers.
Interesting and thought-provoking thread.
I think we are all beautiful in our own way, although others cannot always see us the way we do.
I believe that if we think we have found 'the one' - our perfect partner, but our feelings for them are not reciprocated, then clearly they are not as perfect for us as we thought they were. So, and I know this is easier said than done, it is best to try to move on - there is no point chasing something that isn't there, and can only lead to heartbreak and feelings of low self-worth. I've been there and boy does it hurt, but you have to see things for what they are. Life is too short to waste time with people that do not deserve us. It sounds like you came close to finding your soulmate M, but close is not good enough is it? Try to move on. The sooner you do the sooner your true soulmate will find you. He is out there somewhere.
Wow. Cool input from everyone. I must say I strongly agree with Ocean Escape, but I also know it's so easy to see things from an outsider's perspective (and not have all the insider knowledge to boot).
It's really hard when you feel that your feelings for someone aren't returned with the same level of intensity.
Blimey. What a lot of comments. Great advice. Funny images of me and God as fogies.
He he he.
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